07.09.2012.
Random ramblings while riding the rails. Via rails. Despite
failing to acquire that which I came for (Police check), I had a very nice day
in Ingersoll, particularly spending time with Oma & Opa, who are the most
humourous people I know. And certainly wise with a lifetimes worth of knowledge
and understanding of this crazy world we live in.
As Opa points out, life is far too short to waste worrying
about things we can’t control or the sad state of society, and should rather be
spent enjoying the simplicities of life.
- like the chick next to me doing organic chemistry on her
laptop
- I really need to re-nerdify myself and start refreshing my
knowledge of biology, science and world capitals.
- I’m slightly bothered by my current reliance on running as
the defining aspect of my identity. I have become far too one-dimensional and
have let go of many of my past passions and interests. While I cannot merely ‘step
away’ from running, I need to do more to broaden the scope of “how I am” both
seen by myself as well as by others.
- I feel I have a healthy, if not mildly offensive, sense of
humour which rejects our societies obsession with political correctedness. I
enjoy finding the humour in all things especially myself. Bc let’s face it: I’m
pretty damn hilarious.
- So you want to be a teacher huh? Seems like a pretty stupid
idea considering the current job market. But that’s ok. I’m sure I’ll do fine.
But how can I be so sure…
Why I’ll be successful as a high-school teacher. Bc like
most of the students, I don’t give a shit. Ok, maybe that’s not true. I do give
a shit. I sincerely want to make a difference, no matter how small and
insignificant that might be. Looking back, I’d say it was a handful of HS
teachers that have led me to where I am right now and in some way, wanting to
emulate them. Ms Hunter. Mr Mol. Mr Boin. These teachers made a difference and that’s
really all that matters. So I’ll put up with all the PC, EDSJ bullshit for 10 months,
smile and nod, try not to offend anyone, and I’ll do what it takes to make
myself as ‘marketable’ as possible and perhaps even get a job one day.
And while we’re being optimistic, how bout thinking about
some life goals… the things I want to achieve before I die (of which I’ll
decide when and how) [ Note to self – really need to brush up on my English language
skills: grammar, spelling, word definitions, etc, etc] So ya, life goals: So
one day I’ll be a high school teacher. I’ll be good at it, make some powerful
friends and earn just enough to justify the major headaches of dealing w
modern-day youth. Maybe I’ll even become principal one day. SKINNER!
I also have my running goals which in short… are to run
fast. Like sub 2:30 fast. Maybe sub 2:20 (that’s really fast!)
I plan to live in the country and run a hobby farm with
pigs, sheep, goats, a cow or two, plenty of ducks, a big dog (Bernese) and
perhaps a donkey.
I’d love to live a fairly long life which will continue on as
long as I’m healthy (ie independently functionable).
Ok, that’s enough journal writing for today.
It then continues on the
next page…
If I died today. If I died right now. That would be okay.
Not that I want it to happen. But it would be okay if it did. I don’t want to
die. Not now, not for a very long time. But I guess it would be okay. I’ve had
a good life. A great life even. It hasn’t been perfect (what is perfect),
nothing is perfect. It’s been the life I’ve chose to live and for that I have
few regrets. I don’t ‘believe’ in a “other side.” I’m not even sure I would
want to if it existed. Bc if it did, what would be the point of being here now.
I hope this is all there is. That way, I can/will be sure to make the most of
it (most of the time). I’ve been here for 25 yrs. I still have many more to go.
Let’s be sure to make them count. To make the most out of everything. Always.
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